Every night.

The words i sleep on form the poems I dream on equaling my sweetest downfall.

Questions for Rivers at age 8

Asked Rivers (Age 8) all these questions about me

*What is something I say a lot?
"Rivers"

*What makes me happy?
Rivers

*What makes me sad?
"your dad that passed away"

*How tall am I?
6 feet

*What's my favorite thing to do?
Play League of Legends

*What is my favorite food?
Hot Pot

*What is my favorite drink?
Coke

*If I could go anywhere, where would it be?
Hawaii

*Do you think you could live without me?
No

*How do I annoy you?
By walking infront of the TV and dance

*What is my favorite tv show?
Watching League of Legends

*What is my favorite music to listen to?
Weezer

*What is my job?
Computer stuff

*How old am I?
36

*what's my favorite color?
Green

*How much do I love you?
To pluto and back 

Because I am a Dad.

Because I am a Dad...


When I was younger, in my 20's, I never did want kids. Maybe I was just selfish with my own time, with my dedication, with my passion and interests for my future.  I didn't know what true love was, what it felt like to live and breath. I didn't know.


When my son was born, I had no clue what kind of world I was stepping into. Sure, 9 months to mentally prepare, but we all know that's impossible if you've never been a parent before. And still I'm sure its hard after that when a new life sits in your arms for the very first time.  One day life is just as you know it and all of a sudden the next day it means so much more. Life changes. Life grows. Life won't stop and the only choice we have is how we handle this ride that is given to us.



I cry when he sings Christmas songs at school. I get nervous on his first day of class. I root him on when he's competing. My eyes tear up when I find a sock he wore when he was an infant.  I hug him before bed. I feed him breakfast in the morning. I make sure his hair is combed. I cook him dinner. I buy him school supplies. I help him with his homework. I play video games with him. We wrestle and battle in imaginary wars. We race to get dressed first. We race to brush our teeth first. We race to bed. We share the chores.  We take care of each other. We have each others backs. He loves me and I know it,  I love him and he knows it. And every single night before he falls asleep I remind him... he's my best buddy.


Life changes. Life grows. Life won't stop and the only choice we have is how we handle this ride that is given to us.